In Memory of Hinata...

This... This is so unexpected...

And it's... so touching!!

Uh..., Hinata, I will always remember you...

Taken NARUTO manga Chapter 437:

Hinata: This is my own selfish act. I am standing here on my own will.

I was always crying, giving up even before I began, always trying to do the wrong things.

But then Naruto-kun, you showed me the right way to live.

I was always chasing after you, always trying to catch up.

I always wanted to able to walk side by side with you.

You were the one who changed me. It was your smile that saved me.

So, in order to protect you, I'm not afraid to die.

Because, I like you.

What an agonising confession...

Come on, Naruto, you must beat Pain!

Uh...

No Time

Have been really quite busy the past few days. I also don't know why. I just didn't have the time to come and update my blog.

What I was doing? Hmm, mostly going out, going to camp and fixing my com. Oh yeah, my PC is finally fixed now. I still don't know what the problem was but who cares since I can use it already. Now it's running Windows XP instead of Vista. This is to save RAM so that it can run faster and hopefully can last for a few more years (it's quite old now...).

Luckily I still could retrieve back my music and piano scores. These were sort of the most precious things in my com. Oh yeah, and pictures too. And now I can finally continue to put songs and videos in my iPOD. Yay!

I realised these few days that you'll never have the time to do everything you want. Definitely some things have to be sacrificed, or put aside first. If you want to finish everything you can't finish anything. (Actually I realised this long ago but I just realised it again recently...)

7 daze is starting soon. In fact I only have one more weekend left before it starts. I haven't made plans for it, and neither does the camp. It would be a miracle if we could even survive the first week. Plus all the politics and selfish people in the camp I don't know what I can do already. If only I could just press the fast-forward button...

This will be one big hurdle to my ORD...

Friends or Lovers?

I forgot who it was but I remember somebody telling me that Valentine's Day is also International Friendship Day. Immediately I found it weird, that two such contrasting occasion would fall on the same day. I'm lazy to go and check out also, so I randomly found a reason for it myself after some thinking.

My friend also told me that Valentine's Day is more meant for singles. To couples, everyday is Valentine's Day, hence this day won't be any special.

Therefore, I thought that maybe February 14th is meant to differentiate between friends and lovers. For normal friends, they will celebrate International Friendship Day. For lovers, they will celebrate Valentine's Day.

It doesn't matter whether you are single or attached. It applies to everybody.

So, are you a friend, or are you a Valentine?

What about myself?


PS I just did a search and found out that International Friendship Day is on some other day. But since I already wrote this, and it doesn't affect my opinion, I gues it doesn't really matter.

PPS My PC is spoilt... Now there's a lot of things I can't do liao... Need to get it fixed ASAP... I think it's really getting old now.

Prepare for 7 Daze

DISCLAIMER: This post has NOTHING to do with the Army, SAF, Navy, or any other related organisations. All this happens purely in my mind, and I'm NOT describing my present or future life in my unit. Yes, I'm NOT.

Imagine staying in a confined space for 7 days. You cannot go home. Everyday, other than eat and sleep, all you do is go out and stand at the gate. There are some entertainments, but they are not enough for grown-ups like you. You have no PSP, no XBOX, no computer, no internet. iPOD and MP3 players are still allowed. Books also.

The question is: how do you survive?

Now, that's not the end. Imagine having to stand for a total of almost 10 hours a day outside. There are about 20 people suffering with you, but this kind of manpower is not enough. The same old routine continues everyday. And you are not allowed to exercise during your rest time. Whenever you do anything wrong, you get scolded. If it's serious enough, you'll get to stay for a few more days. You are not allowed to take leaves, even though you can take MC.

If it's just 2 or 3 days, I'm sure you can take it. But SEVEN DAYS? Who would be able to take it?

I don't think I can.

The most I can do, is to bring enough books and put enough videos in my iPOD. But I'm sure I'll get tired of it after doing the same thing for a few days.

Those higher-ups would happily go home everyday, while we are the ones who have to suffer.

WHY must this kind of things happen?

I mean, if it REALLY happens, it would be a downright TRAGEDY.

TRAGEDY OF THE YEAR.

I shall see at the end of the 7 days, how many would still be alive.

And how many 7 days we can endure before we all turn into zombies.

End of imagination.

新年快乐？

阳历新年过了。农历新年也过了。

鼠年过去了。牛年来了。

照道理，我应该在祝每个人新年快乐，别人也会相应地祝我新年快乐。

但我的新年，是否真的快乐呢？


如果快乐，那是因为过了新年代表我当兵的日子已经过了一大半了。还有大概10个月左右，我就可以出来，重获自由之身了。

快乐，也是因为我又可以在这段时间跟同学，朋友们相聚，吃喝玩乐。跟他们在一起，几乎所有烦恼都忘光了。


但是这次，不快乐的层面似乎比较多。

第一：围棋。期待已久的世界业余围棋赛的选拔赛终于来了，但是我还没有做足抵抗就草草败下阵来，再次失去了代表新加坡参赛，飞去日本的机会。人人都说明年还有机会，不过这句话，我不知道已经连续听了多少年了。

第二：兵营。是不是我注定没法跟他人好好相处？不管到哪里去，能交到的朋友都是寥寥无几，关系不好的却有一大堆。而且就算是朋友，也会经常互相猜疑，嘲笑。这种也算得上真正的朋友吗？而且为什么我总是要看别人的脸色做事呢？逢场作戏，装摸做样，在兵营（和社会）貌似是件常事，但偏偏这是我不喜欢做的。

第三：人生。快要过20岁的生日了，我却对我的人生一点打算都没有。大学专业是选好了，但我也不确定我是不是真的想学那个。想利用这段时间来做些有用的事，学些有用的事，但每次都无所事成。我到底将来要做什么？我要做一个什么样的人？我要交一个什么样的女朋友？这些问题，我都无法自己回答。顺其自然，真的是正确的吗？船到桥头真的会直吗？

第四：精神。记忆越来越差，思想也越来越迟钝了。不管是不是当兵的副作用，这对我的生活造成了很大的障碍。人也变得越来越懒惰，一到家就什么事都不想做，到了兵营也整天只顾着睡觉。我的自我管理能力跑到哪儿去了？这样还怎么上大学啊？

等等。


人长得越大，烦恼果然就越多。被如此多的烦恼包围，我还可以说“新年快乐”吗？