Sunday, September 30, 2012

Shock


Received a very shocking news yesterday.

Until now, I still don't know how to react to it.

I don't know how I should face it.

All I can say is I was really very shocked.

Shocked until I don't know what to say.

This means that one of my dreams has been shattered.

Mostly, if not completely.

Why did it end up this way?

Honestly, I have no idea.

But I can conclude that what I have been thinking all along was wrong.

I was too stupid and innocent.

And what I have done wasn't enough.

If it even mattered in the first place.

This news destroyed so many of my thoughts and plans.

And all of a sudden I don't know what to do.

I question myself, "What is the meaning of life?"

Before this I didn't know the answer but I could still live happily.

Now, I'm not sure whether I can still do that.

Another lesson learnt is, I need to stop living in my own world.

Waiting for things to happen.

Waiting for things to come to me.

Nothing is going to come to me if I just sit here and wait.

Nobody is going to talk to me if I just sit here and keep quiet.

Activeness is what I lacked all along.

I thought I was active enough, but I was wrong.

I hope to see a more active side of me next time.

But for now, I'll just sit at home, and think about life.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Tsumego #069

(;GM[1]FF[4]AP[Drago:4.21]SZ[19]CA[UTF-8]AW[rs][rr][qq][pq][oq][ro][po][no][lp][ko][jq][jr][ir]AB[sr][sq][pr][or][kr][lr][mq][nq]C[White to kill.])


An easy one for the kyu players.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Tsumego #068

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Don't think too much.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Tsumego #067

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A problem given to me by Lee Sung Jie 9p when he came to WMSG in France. I think I've seen it somewhere before though.

Monday, September 3, 2012

Going Out

Recently I've been going out more often.

And I actually prefer this kind of life-style.

I think the main reason I didn't enjoy my life in school last time was the lack of social life.

I was stuck in school or home and didn't go out most of the time.

Furthermore I was so obsessed with my laptop that I couldn't bring myself to study at all.

I think now I am able to enjoy life a little bit better.

Though I don't mind a little more. :)



Anyway, recently a friend whom I knew in France during the World Mind Sports Games came to visit Singapore. (I will write a post on WMSG next time :p)

So naturally, trying to be good guy, I brought her around.

It was hard to think of places actually, because Singapore is really so small.

But it was also fun to go to places I also never visited before myself. (What have I been doing in Singapore all these years? :p)

















The Garden by the Bay was really pretty. The huge 'trees' (are those real trees?) outside and all the flowers inside the domes. And the huge fountain and the tall pathways. It's really a very good place to walk around and relax. It's a pity we missed the light performance at night though. But at least we managed to see the Helix Bridge. :)




We also went to Clarke Quay and walked down all the way to Esplanade. (Why are all the nice places at central? lol) Honestly I didn't know that there was a Merlion kid there until I went there. But the view from the Merlion area was really very nice. I could even see the floating platform from there.

Saturday night was also Karen's farewell party at SWA, so I also brought her there. Just nice Karen was going London for PHD and she is studying at UK currently, so I could introduce them to each other as well.

I realised that there were many things I could learn from this friend of mine. She leads a very organised lifestyle, with fixed time for studies and Baduk everyday. Because her studies always end very late, she takes the effort to wake up earlier everyday to study Baduk. Even during holidays she also spends fixed hours each day to study. And from the way she reviews her games I can see that she is really very serious into Baduk. As a result? She gets good grades, and is also very strong in Baduk. Her dream is to be a Professional Baduk Player and a doctor. :)

I was really stunned when she told me all these. But I also realised that if you want to achieve something, you really need to put in time and effort. And it must be CONSISTENT. If only I could be as disciplined as her. If only I could manage my time as well as her. If only I could be as consistent in my efforts as her. I think my Baduk will improve by at least 1 or 2 stones and my grades will get better too.

Anyway enough with envy. I believe with her consistent efforts she will definitely become a pro soon. :) And I also should start doing things for myself from now, instead of spending everyday like it's nobody's business.










Another event. On Friday night, I went to this Korean Learners' Meet-Up Session at Talent Cafe at Tanjong Pagar, organised by Shanna Tan. Shanna is a very famous blogger (you can find her blog address on the right) who speaks Korean and Japanese very well. I knew her long time ago from Xingwei but Friday was the first time I saw her in person. She looked quite different from her photos. :p

It was actually my first time going to such a meet-up where I don't know most of the people. I went with Alvin and Xingwei, and in the end we both sat at different tables with new people. There were many Koreans there as well, and it was very fun as everybody was very friendly. I think my ability to talk to new people improved a little bit as well. :p

After the meet-up we went to Tom and Toms Cafe to get a drink with Shanna and some of the people remaining. Shanna was really a good Korean speaker. She has no difficulties at all communicating with Koreans, and her pronunciation is just like that of a Korean. She finished TOPIK 5! She has interned in Korea before and also went to Korea for exchange once. I wish I could have just half of her Korean fluency.

In fact many of the people who turned up went to Korea for an exchange once. Why didn't I fight for a chance like that? No point regretting now though. I can only do my best now and hope such a chance will come again.



That's all for this week. Tomorrow is Monday. Back to another week of lesson and mugging. But I also hope it will be different. 화이팅!!!